New Beginning...

Wow... it has been months since I last wrote something... aside from "facebook-fever", I was so busy setting my goals for the past months... I tried so hard to set aside my personal interests and focused on what I needed to do for my family and loved ones... I was so busy fixating myself on future dreams and ambitions... And now that I finally got where I wanted to be... It's time to satisfy my inner thirst... the desire to write and the passion to speak what I think and feel...

I will no longer post another thread here... but you could visit another site I am currently developing... it's not yet finish... Hopefully I could finish it within the month... :)

I feel blessed and happy for the year to come... I am hoping and praying things will be different this time around :)

the new blog site that I am currently fixing is: http://its-may.blogspot.com/

Don't expect too much yet as, it is still in the "twilight" stage :) but hey... everything starts with one step... so here I go again... :)

in the end

I have always loved writing.. and probably will still write for as long as I live..

Unfortunately, like most chapters in books, it begins, reaches the climax, and then goes to its ending... Sometimes, a story gets a happily ever after ending.. Sometimes, the main character dies... and Sometimes, a journey stops unexpectedly and then begins a second round...

I have treasured this blog and kept it close to my heart, but I will have to bid farewell to this online journal... I have to end yet another chapter of my life...

My reason to end is simply because I believe it has come to a point that my body needs to step forward and move on... I'm sure I will be back soon to rock the blogging world again but for now, my moment has come to rest. Not just for my heart, but my mind and soul as well...

I will be back, I am sure of that, so I am not saying goodbye... I will still probably keep my old posts and I will promise to keep all the links I have on my blog roll... I really am not sure up until when my system can refrain from writing or from visiting my favorite blog sites.. But hey, the world will continue spinning for everybody...

This will be my last post so I'll make it long and worth reading...

When I was still young, like other young poets and young teenagers, I dreamt of a fantasy world. So much like Snow White, Cinderella, and Sleeping Beauty, where the princess would one day meet their prince charming and break off a dreadful spell from their lives. I lived a while to create my own fantasy and own dreams. I built my hope of love on stories like Romeo and Juliet, Midsummer Night's Dream, Little Prince etc... When I started growing up, I realized that life is really not that simple. That loving is not that good at all. It makes you weak, makes you hurt a lot and makes you stupid and crazy at times. This love I am referring to is not just the love you feel for that special somebody. The love of all sorts - friendly love, family love, lustful love, etc... Every love you have in your body gives you an equal power to hurt another person... And I started being afraid... And I guess the fear got its toll on me... I engaged myself in so many relationships that I forgot what really matters most - the heart, the kiss, the love-making, the moment... Everything was blurry... And now, I just realized, that loving doesn't mean it has to be perfect. Loving doesn't mean it has to be clear or wise or clean... Loving just means embracing the will of getting hurt and accepting the power of hurting another being...

So, why am I talking about love? It is because writing has been my number one love ever since God knows when... I was anxious of how I could change the world with what I love, but I didn't know where to begin or how I should start... And through this blog I was able to continue loving, continue dreaming and continue living... I've met wonderful friends, I've shared my opinion with different people, I've started to build a world that I truly admire and love... But, a lot of things happened without my control... a lot of things shattered amidst my hope of finding what I thought I had... And I don't want to get caught in a web of confusion and frailty of my heart, mind and body yet again... So I am now deciding to give my heart and mind a break... Free from thinking and free from being scared...

I know I said that love just means embracing the will of getting hurt and accepting the power of hurting another being... So, why am I running again? Why am I stopping here? It is because I am not yet ready to embrace that definition... and yes, I am still a scaredy-cat, who now has to hide and assess again things that are really never there... And I need to be sure, I need to confirm to myself that it is really not there... Or else, I would have to face my fear... And when I do, that's when I start loving again... that's when I start writing again...

So for now, I need to step aside and rest from this journey... "In the end of it all, it is you I will wait... and I will hope and I will dream, then maybe... just maybe...."

xs:
Thank you... Thank you for everybody who visited, who gave pieces of advise, who became my friend, who took time to read and took a piece of my life with them... Thanks for the heart, for the warmth and for the love of writing... Thanks for everybody who truly felt connected through each post that I wrote... Thanks for those blog who brightened up my day during the times I couldn't even force a smile... Thanks for those people who became a part of me as well for each day that I visited their site... Thanks for giving me life and the reason to love , dream and hope again... Thank you...

break from "emo"deness

was running through my past emails and some emails caught my attention again.. I'll start of with this funny one I got from one of my college friends...

TOP TEN REASONS TO DATE AN ENGINEER

10. The world does revolve around us... we chose the coordinate system.

9. No "couple" enjoys a better "moment".

8. We know how to handle stress and strain in a relationship.

7. We have significant figures.

6. We have taken a course on the motion of rigid bodies.

5. Projectile motion... need we say more?

4. Engineers do it according to specification.

3. According to Newton, if two bodies interact, their forces are equal and opposite.

2. We know it's not the length of the vector that counts, but how you apply the force.

1. We know the Right Hand Rule.

Need we say more ...

:) nyak, mga Engineers talaga!

xs:
Engineer nga pala ako... hahaha

weather report

Puta naman! Ang iniiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!

Ba't ganito? parang hindi pasko.. napaka-init.. tipong nakahiga ka lang eh sobrang pawis ka pa rin.. kahit nakatapat na sayo yun electric fan napaka-init pa rin... Hindi naman ako mayaman para ipa-centralized ang bahay ko at ng hindi na magpawis ang katawan ko...

Kaya ba lahat ng tao tila mainit din ang ulo palagi? Yun tatay ko, an aga-aga pa lang eh nakasimangot na... (dahil kaya mainit o dahil hindi napagbigyan?) hehe.. Yun nanay ko, kabaligtaran, naka-tawa, nawili sa pag-exercise, mas ok daw kasi yung pawis na pawis, mas maraming "body fats" ang mawawala.. Yung mga aso naman namin, ayun tahol ng tahol.. wala namang tao... feeling ko pati sila init na init.. kawawa naman... Pero bilib ako sa mga kapatid ko... dahil kahit sobrang init na, hindi pa rin naalis yun habit nila na maligo ng mainit na tubig, ang tindi! Kahit sobrang init na ng panahon, nakuha pa rin nilang mag-init ng tubig pampaligo... astig!

Parang kahapon lang, sobrang init... Konting lakad ko pa lang parang gusto ko ng sumuko, bumalik pako ng bahay para magpalit ng t-shirt dahil feeling ko naja-jabar ako sa t-shirt na sinuot ko... Di kinaya ng powers ko ang matinding sikat ng araw... Napadala pa ako ng payong at pamaypay...

E di ba nga dapat malamig na ang panahon ngayon? Pano na makakapag-emote ang mga tao sa pagsapit ng pasko? Pano kakantahin yun mga christmas jingle na, "...malamig ang simoy ng hangin..." Sana may snow na lang din dito sa pilipinas noh?

Pero isa lang talaga ang masasabi ko... putangina! ang iniiiit!!! sana naman matapos na tong kahibangan ng araw at magpahinga na kakasikat ng sobra, give chance to others naman... ayoko din naman ng bumabagyo at umuulan, ang akin lang e, ok lang naman yung maaraw, wag lang yung ultimo pati pagpaypay ko eh mainit na hangin pa rin ang lumalabas sa pamaypay ko... badtrip eh...

xs:
Naisip ko lang... kung lahat ng tao, nag-iinit, baka lalong dumami ang populasyon ng Pilipinas... patay tayo jan... hehehe... :D